Let's Fly and Reach the Top

Of Islam

2010-09-04T23:51:00.003+08:00

A friend made a great post that sets me thinking. It is about the music video between a Malaysian female singer, Mizz Nina and Colby O'Donis.

Since her blog is private, quote from her post:

Call me old-fashioned, call me traditional, call me party-pooper, call me thrower of the damper on moods, call me narrow-minded... but I find this whole thing rather appalling. To be perfectly frank, instead of feeling, well, proud, for someone representing my race (and religion) in the international music arena, I feel a tinge of disappointment and a whole lot of uneasiness.

"Cut some slack, they don't even kiss, drink, have sex, etc.," some comments state as such, well that's true, apparent as it is from the video that they don't do any of it.

But let's question ourselves - is this really what we want to portray to people of other religions all over the world? That Malay/Muslims are allowed to do this? That true Muslims are allowed to wear such sexy outfits, that true Muslims are allowed to flirt and pass sexual innuendos to a guy, etc.?

I am sure she's not the only one, I mean I know there are hundreds of artistes out there who do the same or worse. So this is directing to not her alone, but to the others as well.

Some people would think, "At least she's not doing drugs, or smoke, or tattoos herself all over, she just sings, and she sings well, and at least she does her country proud"

Yeah but with the expense of crossing over one's religious boundaries?

Well then maybe you'd scream the fact to my face and say, "Hey what's your problem? It's normal these days... What's the fuss, stop being an oldie and open your mind! It's just a music video, get over it."

Honestly, I didn't know being open-minded means you have to open your mind so wide your brains fall off. Living in a modern world, with modern means, yes, that is what we are encouraged to do, to adapt to the modern society with time... but as a Muslim, we have to know that Islamic context, will never change. It can bend itself to suit today's society but the facts in the Qur'an, the obligations by Allah in the Qur'an, will always remain the same. But it's sad that there are so many out there who still refuse to follow, just because they think they have a whole lifetime ahead of them to change, or they are just being plain ignorant.

I probably shouldn't have bothered, commenting on how wrong Muslims are getting on here, but this concerns the sincerity, the true essence of my religion, and I want to uphold it and it is every Muslim's responsibility to do so.

If this is what we Muslims call moving forward, then I'm sorry, I am feeling the most regrettable for my fellow Muslims who support this. Sure it might seem harmless, it might seem like pure, innocent, harmless fun, just a music video, but don't you think it's something we shouldn't be so proud of? People, especially kids these days might start getting the wrong idea and as a result, this becomes truly okay in the eyes of the society. Isn't it common sense that this is like a snowball effect? Ponder on it.

It is really no wonder that sometimes, our fellow Chinese and Indian friends get all confused and keep on questioning us Muslims on the things that are wrong, or right, in our religion. I don't fault them for being entirely ignorant. We have to blame ourselves, if we do not practice, and do not preach. Doing the opposite of what we are obligated to do - drinking alcohol as fine, clubbing as fine, eating pork as fine, basically not obliging to Allah S.W.T's orders as fine - will result in the truth getting lost. Therefore, we as proud Muslims must convey the TRUE message of what being a Muslim is all about, if not, the spreading of Muslim just as a label we put on ourselves is going to get worse, and we will witness the downfall of Islam in no time.

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Truthfully, I debated whether to watch the music video. But for the sake of fairness if you would say, I looked through the video. I was sorely disappointed. There are many things that is plain wrong about it; the song, her actions and her clothes. Therefore, I personally agreed with my friend' views on this topic. It might be a norm for the western artiste to make such music video but the issue here is that she is NOT a western singer. She is from Malaysia and hence, become a representative from the Malay/Muslim community. I'm concerned how the singer's image would be reflected on the Islam community.

Furthermore, the last point from the post, about the mixed signal send to other races are definitely true. Unfortunately, I am guilty on the issue. A friend asked me before, "Hasyimah, I want to ask you a question. I thought wearing tudung is compulsory for Malay girls, how come you and (another Malay girl in my course) don't wear it?". In fact, this question was asked a few times. At first, I was speechless. It was a simple yet complicated question. How do I explained the situation so that they would understand. I went to consult my dad on the matter. My reply to the question the next time was " Wearing tudung is a must for Muslim girls. The fact that I'm not wearing it means I am consider to have sinned."

My prayers is that I would be able to change and be a better representative of Islam.

Kuih Rayas~

2010-09-04T22:54:00.004+08:00

And so it starts, kuih galore~

Wednesday Night-Kuih Suji with Grandmother.

Thursday Afternoon- Kuih Ros at home

Friday Afternoon-Kuih Cornflakes at home

Friday Night-Kuih Tat ( I had a hard time flatting the dough and cutting the dough.)

All the kuihs are tasty. I think kuih makmur is next at gramps. After that is the hari raya feast with ketupat(rice cakes), ayam masak merah(chicken cooked in red gravy?) and daging redang (a type of meat dish, =/). Plus mugging for exams. Sigh.

Internship, YOG & Exams

2010-08-30T16:16:00.004+08:00

I knew about it for some time, just never gotten around to announce it. So, I will be starting my internship at Ducktours on 20 September. I quite excited and anxious about it. 23 weeks of being a working woman. LOL!

Just wrapped up my participation in YOG. It was fun and i meet a bunch of interesting people. The army boys are really nice and appreciative of the volunteers. They really took care of us, especially me who is fasting. Sathia, one of the IC, personally thanked each of the volunteers for our time and effort. This is why I love getting involved in these kind of events. It is heartwarming to know your efforts are being appreciated even from the spectators. =D

Anyway, exam week is next week. I got to start studying soon. =/ I realize my last paper is on the day before Raya. I want to help weave the ketupat. T_T

Tired to the bone.

2010-07-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

Gah.. I feel so bad for not updating. I update as soon as I can. I'm glad when this semester over so that I can catch some zzz.

YOG & NDP

2010-07-11T23:40:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, I spent the whole day in town. I went for YOG training in the morning and I went to the NDP preview in the evening. The training was slow but they feed me well, 1 lunch and 2 tea breaks. The NDP preview was a bit of a disappointment. The people(whoever they are) neglected this year NDP for YOG opening and closing ceremony. Last year parade was much better. Fortunately, the fireworks were still the best.

Here's a video.

And thank god for no sound. If not, you will be hearing my squeaky voice singing along to the NDP song. LOL!

Please say no.

2010-07-09T16:15:00.004+08:00

I notice how many are not updating their blog. We are all stress with the final year and our own personal problems. Yet, we are not together to comfort and console each other. I'm worried.

Are we drifting apart?

Swarmped

2010-07-05T22:20:00.004+08:00

Ergh, I hate this semester. I'm so tired and depressed. =( By the way, I have quitted my job. Yesterday was my last day. I could not handle it. Plus, this Saturday is the YOG training day. At least that is something to look forward to.

Something that I would like to share.

Girls, can we meet? I miss you all.

This is just how life is.

2010-06-19T16:32:00.005+08:00

I like the music and when I found out the meaning of the lyrics, I love it even more.

I know I'm only 19 and still have a long way to go. But at the rate the time is going, soon I will be working and there goes the carefree years of childhood.

It flows away like the water of a river that cannot return.

Happenings

2010-06-16T22:34:00.008+08:00

Quite a bit of things have happened since my last update.

-My sister is a married woman.
-My small brother hit his head. You can see a part of his skull and he need 6 stitches. Poor kid.
-I burned the midnight oil and have a test on last Wednesday.
-Watched A-Team with school friends on Friday. I strongly recommend the movie.
-The family went KL on Friday so had the whole house to myself. I blame the expired passport.
-Sunday is the working day.
-The last two days were resting at home and catching up on schoolwork.
-I went to Botanical Gardens for schoolwork.

I don't have much pictures of the wedding but I have uploaded it to Facebook. You can look at the picture there.

Waterfall in Botanical Gardens

Sculpture for Singapore Garden Festival 2010. Exact replica.

I am addicted to this song. =))

Stretch to the limit.

2010-06-01T10:35:00.004+08:00

'School work have been crazy lately. Tutorials to do, deadlines to meet and surveys to conduct. Throw in the preparations for the wedding and work, I don't even have time to do anything else. I barely eat 1 meal a day and slept lesser hours than the recommended. Does this mean my lifespan will be shorter?

Looking forward for next week when the wedding is over and I would have some free time. I need to manage my time better.

Sightseeing.

2010-05-19T20:10:00.011+08:00

Last Friday, I went out to collect information for tourists for my final year project. Basically, I have to approach tourists and ask them to spare me some of their time to complete a survey which is THREE pages long. So, I feel very grateful for those who helped. Plus, I met some wonderful people from various parts of the world; France, Australia, England, etc. The two places that I went was Clarke Quay and City Hall. Going to these places made me feel like I'm a tourists. Sometimes I feel I need to go out more. HAHAHA. I took some pictures!

The Merlion (Small Version)

Marina Bay Sands

The Esplanade

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The Floating Platform & The Flyer

The Fullerton Hotel (Future Workplace?)

Some of my group members: Shamini & Sharlene

Farewell.

2010-05-14T00:18:00.005+08:00

Kim C is leaving 1night 2days variety show. T_T He is my most favourite member among the 7 members. It's going to be harder to see him around now because he hardly appeared in any shows.

This is why I love him (you can skip to 02:19):

I like to believe I will be able to do like what he did. My wishes for him is that he will continue to be successful in his music and a blissful life with his family.

Graduation Day

2010-05-13T23:54:00.004+08:00

Not for me but my cousin. I attended her graduation ceremony yesterday at Republic Polytechnic. When she was called out, I can't contained my excitement and screamed her name. HAHAHA. Talk about embarrassing yourself. I wish I got some pictures to show but I was seated far away from the seat because I have no invitation card. T_T

Once again, I realized how time really flies. Just some tine ago, my brother graduated at the same venue. Now, he is in National Service with his shaved head. Next year will be my turn and fellow friends. Are we prepared for it? To be thrown into the harsh working environment? We have less than 1 year to go and it is short. For me, I have around 4 months to go for my internship. I either crash and burn or triumphed. For all those in internship or going for it, let's work hard. We can do it!

I have not seen eye candy for around 3 weeks. Where did he go? Maybe he is studying hard for his mid-year exams. *Sigh* I want to see him.

Life is fickle.

2010-05-09T21:24:00.004+08:00

Last night I had a restless night. I was on my bed, getting ready to sleep, when it just dawned on me that I might not wake up tomorrow. I had occasionally thought of death before but this time it really affected me. I almost didn't dared to go sleep. I thought of all the sins I committed and the prayers that I missed. I thought about how I didn't cover myself and the pitiful amount of good deeds that I had done.

Aside from the fear, I felt aggrieved because if I die now, I will not be able to reach my dream. A dream that hopefully benefit the Muslim community and the world. I prayed that Allah will give me the opportunity and time to redeem myself. All of us are born into this world for a purpose and I hope my dream is that purpose.

P.S Sorry for the gloomy post.

It's a bird, it's a plane,.....

2010-05-08T19:46:00.005+08:00

No, it's SUPERBOY! Up, up and

THUMP!

Small siblings are so amusing. Once, he was watching a kids show and was dancing to the music. When he saw me, he immediately stop and act embarrass. HAHAHA!

Finally, an update.

2010-05-06T20:39:00.004+08:00

Hello! This the first official post after almost one year. Hmm..,Where to start?

This is the third week of school and it has been crazy. I feel tired already with the upcoming reports and assignments where half of them are individual. However, I won't bored you all with details. I feel worried though on whether I am able to do a good job on the assignments.

Anyway, I wanted to share this song. Yes, it is from Korea BUT it is in English and is from an indie band.

Here the lyrics roughly:

Hot Potato – Something
(English lyrics: Tablo)

Got no answers
For all of the questions
The only thing that I know
Is that I do not know
I don’t know me
anymore

No solutions
For a lot of your problems
The only thing I can be
Something I don’t wanna be
I’m not what I used to be

Why you get mad
I don’t know anymore
I closed myself up
And I’m shutting the door
I’m not the nice guy
you fell head over heels
In love with before

Something’s wrong with me
And you don’t seem to disagree
When I say go away
It’s not really what I wanted
Wanted to say

Everything I said
It’s like I’m lost inside my head
I love you, But it’s true
I don’t know the things that I do
Maybe I am crazy in love

Got no problems
Thet all your's solutions
The only thing I can be
What you don’t want me to be
I’m not what I used to be

Why you get mad
I know baby I see
You closed yourself up
And the problem is me
I’m not the nice guy
You fell head over heels
In love I’m sorry

Something’s wrong with me
And you don’t seem to disagree
When I say go away
It’s not really what I wanted
Wanted to say

Everything I said
It’s like I’m lost inside my head
I love you, But it’s true
I don’t know the things that I do
Maybe I am crazy in love

Something’s wrong with me
But don’t you know I try to be
Beautiful, Wonderful
Though I maybe crazy baby
know that I am crazy for you

Please excuse his pronunciation. What you think?

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Anyways, I have been hearing bad news about my friends these past few days. Be strong, girls (You know who you are). I might not have always been available but if you ask, I will be there. A listening ear always helps.

To end this in a positive note,

I cordially invite all my 6 lovely girls; Shila, Syafz, Myra, Faiezah, Yani and Evia, to my sister's wedding! It will happen on 6 June 2010 which fall on a Sunday(obviously) and is held at Blk 754A (Multi-Purpose Hall). The time is not confirm as yet. I will inform you all when the date gets nearer. I hope you all can come. =))

That's all folks.

Now showing in Blogspot!

2010-05-05T21:07:00.008+08:00

It's done! Welcome back! *clap* *clap*. Hahaha. Just adding a few more touches. Will update when I have the energy. =P

Busy.

2009-07-31T12:58:00.003+08:00

Going hiatus again. Until project and assignment deadline week is over, I don't even have time to sleep. Gah. Me and proscrination.

Caught in the rain.

2009-07-13T09:11:00.005+08:00

A week have passed before I know it. Quite a few things happen last week...

The business message test was alright. I think I will do just fine. A lot of scribbling though. I wonder if Mrs Elsie Peng could read it.

My class held a fund-raising on Thursday. So, I help out after french to sell the drinks and snacks. Apparently, the class finish selling the snacks and only a few cans of drinks left. We made some profit. Around $100 plus.We need to raise more though. The event needs more money.

After the fund-raising, I and my sister went to pick up our NDP uniform. All red and white with a visor. The uniform was not bad. I look quite nice in it. LOL!

Next, came Friday. I'm officially can declared myself to be a Rotaracter. The Rotaract Club organised an to installation and induction day for all the new members. Some magicians perform some tricks. i think they should talk less and do more tricks instead of just two.

On Saturday, I went to Peiying Primary School to bring the kids for NDP. It was weird wearing the NDP uniform and walking around. One bus driver burst into the national song when he saw me. Seriously. It was interesting how they reserve a MRT train just for this primary 5 kids. We got the whole train to our self although it was a bit tight. The train didn't stop at all the stations but just the selected few. We stop at Raffles MRT and have to walk all the way to the floating platform. After some false alarm at the start, there was a heavy downpour at the finale of the parade. I didn't mange to wear my poncho on time and I was soacked to the skin. Even my socks are wet. But really, really fun. The rain was refreshing and the kids enjoy themselves.

Visited my grandmother's house on Sunday. My uncle from Jeddah have come to Singapore for business. I kind of miss him. He is a fun guy to hang out with. Eat durian. Yum yum. How sad that the durian season is over and we can go to pick up durian from my grandfather's kebun(orchard). Now, rambutan's season is here and I'm still is busy as ever. I would love to go kampung and stay in the kebun and wait for the fruits to drop. I have done it before. The kebun house might be a little dirty but once people live in it, it's not bad.

Lastly, Youth to Youth(Y2Y) camp. It's a camp where the TRM course will host students from all over the whole to come to learn about Singapore and the tourism. So, tentatively, only about 5 to 6 students from Japan are confirm going. So, Ms April Ng was in charge and needed 6 people maximum since only 6 students are confirm. About 13 of us apply to be part of the camp. And guess who manage to get in? ME! LOL! Yah!

I will tell about the Y2Y camp later. Right now I should be studying for my LAM test tomorrow, 30% of the whole module. So many things to remember, so little time.

My Weekend

2009-07-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

I went to watch transformers with my sister along with her guy friend, Alif. I didn't really want to watch it. I didn't the storyline and didn't watch the first movie. But my sister offered to treat me so why not? It was pretty interesting. I was amazed how the robots transformed. Super cool. Shia Lebouf is a good actor. I have always like him. =) And the supporting actor, the guy supposedly from middle east, was hilarious. I feel like watching the first series. =p

So Saturday was the first time on ground. Reported at 11.30am and the ushering starts at 4pm. I was feeling restless from the long wait. Got sunburned across the nose. Hahaha. It was pretty tiring since you have to stand and somewhat because of the public 's attitude. However, the parade was awesome. I got to see the parachutees. The last one landed on his butt. It must have hurt. I didn't get to see the performances though. I went for my dinner that time. I got to catch the fireworks. It was so pretty. Can't wait to see the full one on the day. Yeah!

I went to the airport today for the APEC briefing. I went into to the transit area. Haven't been there since primary school. I was brief the whole thing and was given a tour from Terminal 2 through Terminal 1 and then finally Terminal 3. It was very interesting. It definitely perk my interest to work in the airport. The whole thing ended later at 1.30pm. It took such a long time to get the pass for the transit area. Have to quickly rushed off for my 2pm tutorial . Reach school around 2.30pm. At least it's not that late.

Tomorrow I have a written test on business messages. I hope I will do well. Bye.

I saw an artist.

2009-07-03T13:56:00.002+08:00

I went to the APEC meeting this morning, missing both Principles of Marketing lecture and tutorial. No surprise that I arrive late. Thank god it's only 5 minutes and the briefing have not started yet. Blame the bus. And me. I took my time eating breakfast. A girl got to eat. LOL. Although, personally I think I need to cut down. Anyway, the briefing started and there is a LOT to remember and take note. Basically, I need to know everything possible about Singapore. Where to go, shop and eat. By the end of this, I can be a personal tourist guide. For someone who is a hermit, it is no small feat.

Regarding the artist, I saw Shahril, the contestent from Anugerah Skrin. A Suria channel celebrity. Did he won the competition? It's not even a glimpse. He was one of the people who was doing the briefing. Apparently, he is working under STB. Interesting fact. A very good presenter. I thoroughly enjoy the briefing. Looking forward for the event. I will mostly likely be posted at Changi Airport. Between the 13th to 24the July. Unfortuantely, I have to attend another training next monday, meaning another lesson missed. It's all for the experience.

Tomorrow is another big day. NDP. It's for the army personnel or something. So, training have ended and tomorrow i''ll be ushering people. I have to report at 11.30am and end at 10.30. That's a whooping 11 hrs. For the sake of CCA points and clocking hours. It'll be fun. The fireworks!

I'm definitely busy in the months to come. Feel apologetic to my friends, having no time to meet up. Just know that I'm here and if there is any problem, I'll make the time. =)

Au Revoir.

P.S: Please tag so that I know at least someone is reading my blog. =/

Salut!

2009-07-02T13:28:00.003+08:00

I had my first french lesson today. The lesson was hilarious. Quite a number of people were late and they come to class in streams. So, when students come to class, the tutor will talk rapidly in french to them. Imagine the faces. There you are anxious that you are late and the tutor talking in a foreign language. Anyway, the lesson is pretty good. I can now introduce my name, where i stay. =P

Right at this moment, I seriously question my judgement. I apply for this event and this will cause me to miss a couple of lessons and work is piling up. I'm just killing myself. But the event is a good experience. So how? I shall see. Meanwhile, i have to work hard and finish up as many work as possible. 3.5 GPA here I go! LOL.

On the other hand, I found myself eating lunch alone for three consecutive days. I'm such a loner. Hahaha. I wonder if I going to eat alone again tomorrow?

P.S: Salut means informal hello in french.

At Last

2009-06-30T11:43:00.003+08:00

I decided to break my hiatus. i can't believe I haven't post for 6 months. A lot happen in the 6 months. But I shall not dwell much about the past. Most of it just normal, with school and all.

I've been quite busy recently. Weekdays with school and Saturdays for NDP.I'm involved in NDP ushering. Quite excited actually. It will be fun. So my Saturday is pretty much gone until National Day is over. My activities are restricted now. I applied for the Ambassador for APEC but the training in on Thursday, Friday and Saturday morning. All which I can't attend. A little bit regretful. I would love to be part of the event. To gain experience and all.

Starting school after term break is the most disheartening. Two weeks is not enough. LOL. Projects are piling up. Again. On a slightly positive note, I taking French this term. Who knows, by the end of the term, I can speak a little French.

Over and out.

B'dae!

2009-01-14T19:07:00.007+08:00

In less than 5 hrs time, I'll be 18! I'm more excited about this b'dae most probably because I will be crossing the barrier between teenager and adult. Which is weird because what I'll feel tomorrow will the same as I feel today. Haha

Oh yeah, talking about b'dae, someone b'dae is today. Happy B'dae Faiezah! Wanted to leave you a sms but I remember that there is some problem with your number. I still can't believe you are 1 day older than me. ==

Projects are still ongoing. Today, my tutor was going through the topics for next week test. She asked whether my class have anything due next week. There was a pause before sombody reply, "Everything is due nect week.". Haha.

I'm going crazy soon.

ITB website due this friday. MAEC test next tuesday. FABM project due next Thursday. HOM project due next friday. ITB database due another 2 weeks. IAC due another 2 weeks. Exams another 4 weeks. Plus homework in between.

My life is great!

Loving life. Jinjja.

On hiatus

2009-01-12T15:05:00.004+08:00

Too many projects too little time.

4 projects. 2 test. And a whole lot of tutorials to do.

So, won't be updating. =(

Counting down...3 more days.

ITB

2008-12-11T20:46:00.005+08:00

ITB is draining my brain cells.

I have a headache now.

Why do I have to take ITB?

WHY?!

I'm damn stress now.

On the positive note, tommorrow is the last paper.

YEAH!!

Job is still nowhere in sight.

Not that I'm looking for it.

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Tomorrow.

Work!

2008-12-10T17:02:00.004+08:00

I asked for a job vacancy at THREE places today at Causeway Point with my sister. That took a huge chunk of courage to ask. Blame it on my little experience of ASKING FOR a job and my phobia of philippines supervisors/managers albeit the bad encounter only happen twice. This is NOT a discrimination to philippines people because I meet some nice one. May I highlight the supervisor/manager part. That phobia of mine is like my phobia of pineapples. I have this fear that if I eat the pineapple I will feel the sting in my tongue. I don't even know if it hapens to me before or I was scared by my sister's experience. (She experienced the sting before.) It's been years and only recently I got the courage to eat it. Hahaha.

Ok. Back to the topic. First, I asked Seoul Garden. After a few minutes of loitering outside the shop, I steeled myself and ask the supervisor if they is a job vacancy. She straighted away say no and didn't even look at me. She was doing something else. == The best part? She is a philippines. Of all luck. Ne ver mind that. I was just really annoyed that she didn't even look at me. I mean what if I'm a customer? It will be so rude.

Then, I asked Breeks, which unfortunately, is under the same management with Seoul Garden which means no job. =( Next, come Swensens. Still a no. Sigh. My spirit was dampened. Then, there was Siam Kitchen. I was comtemplating whether to ask. I wasn't sure they accept part-timers. Futhermore, I doesn't look like any students work there. Walk a circle around the escalator to muster my courage again. Then, my sister HAVE to mention that there was a philippines worker there. In the end, I chickened out.

So, I left Causeway Point just like how I was when I came in. JOBLESS.I almost desperate enough to ask from Pizza Hut.And I DO NOT want to work there. First, the pay is sucky. Second, my first two sister and brother worked there before. Laastly, I said before that I won't EVER worked there. I DO NOT want to eat my words. I'm stubborn that way. Hahaha.

Eyecandy was late. =(

Continued...

2008-12-02T10:01:00.003+08:00

I proscrinate long enough...Here the pics...

From clockwise,

Leatherwood Honey Panna Cotta
blood orange compote,

Sashimi Of Ocean Trout
sesame wafu dressing,

Seared Seabass
coriander mash & spring vegetables
in a seafood broth.

Field Mushroom Soup
truffle oil,

Passionfruit Sorbet,

Slow Braised Lamb Shank
pappardelle, crispy eggplant

We suppose to choose either the fish of the lamb. I took the lamb. =)
And did I mention the dessert is delicious?

Eye candy.

Dining Workshop

2008-11-24T23:15:00.004+08:00

As the title indicated, I had my dining workshop today. Have to skip BSTATS lecture though, the workshop clashes with the lecture. This is what happen when your timetable clashes with your class. =( Hope I can catch up.

Back to the topic, I learn quite a few things; the table settings, the different types of utensils, how to de-shell a prawn, etc. Safe to say, if I eat at a posh restaurant, I know which fork or spoon to use. Hahaha.Then, we have like lunch cum dinner. 5 courses. Out of these courses, I only find 2 courses that is nice which is the dessert and the main course. I love the dessert. YumYum. Thank god for the dessert. If not, $55 just went into the drain. I promise to upload pics of the meal.(Since I got a hp with camera, albeit it is pass down for my uncle).

Finally, common test is in 2 weeks time. Then, it is holiday. And I haven't found a job yet. AHH!!! *panics*

It's okay.

An Introduction

2008-11-20T13:10:00.004+08:00

I took some pictures of all my lil brothers and sisters. So I thought maybe I can introduce them one by one.

The first up will be Md. Bashrul Hafi. Age: 10. The cheeky one.

Second is Md. Izzuddeen. Age: 8. The obedient one and will break a lot of girls' heart.

The third is Syablani. Age: 7. The pretty one. (She trying to smile without showing her two missing front teeth. Hehehe)

Next is Ummu Aiman. Age: 4. The naughty one but super cute.

The fifth is Md Akmal I'bad. Age: Turning 2. The even super cute one. My sweetheart.<3>

Last but not the least, Nur Aliah. Age: 2 months plus. The ultimately cute one. And my second sweetheart. <3<3>

Well, that's all. This doesn't even include my older brothers and sisters. Well, they are not as interesting(AND cute!) as this bunch. As you can see, I already got 2 sweetheart. Not sure got room for another one. Hahaha.

Or is there?

STRESS!

2008-11-15T18:22:00.009+08:00

I have been driven crazy by projects one after another. For this whole semester, I have to do about 7 projects. Fortunately and thankful, not all the deadlines clash and some are minor projects. Still, that's a lot of project. I currently rushing for 1 project deadline. After that, there still another project. Sigh.

What really driving me insane is ITB. IT in Business. I'm definitely not an IT person and we were asked to source out for internet providers, how to create a webpage and database. The question I want to ask is why are we even learning ITB? I understand that we migh have to make a website in the future but why we need to know what is CPU, RAM, LAN, WAN, etc.? They going to test us on this.

So I'm pretty much stress out now. Physically and mentally tired. I still have to think of tutorials. And finding a job. How am I going to work if I'm will be loaded with projects??

On a happier note, I meet up with my pals last wednesday to celebrate Syafiqah's birthday. I'm happy and proud of myself for personally make Syafiqah's present. It was my first fininshed attempt at cross-stitching. I finished the present in record speed so that I can make it in time. Syafiqah was happy with it although it wasn't really that nice. Here's the pic:

Pretty? Hehehe.

Aja! Aja!

MIA

2008-11-07T02:01:00.004+08:00

Missing in action for too long...

Being busy this pass few weeks...

The new sem is more intense than the last sem.

Anyway, for this whole week, in conjuction with the K-POP festival, a K-POP contest is held. Contestants can sing, dance or do both. I was supporting one group of girls last weekend and the weekend before that. They were from Big Bang's fan club. In other words, I'm kind of in the fan club too? Hahaha.

The girls were singing AND dancing to Big Bang's songs. My throat was sore by the end of the day from all that screaming. What is interesting is that we chant fan chants for Big Bang's songs although I'm not sure if we have fan chants for ALL of Big Bang's songs. It was a fun weekend and the girls won the the 3rd place and is the best group in terms of ranking. I was hoping they get 1st place. Oh well, you can't get everything.

Here are the video clips of the performance. The first video is the semis and the second is the final. I thought the semis performance are better than the final. because they were better prepared for the semis. They have 1 week to prepared for both semis and finals because it was held consecutively on last Saturday and Sunday. Tell me what you think. =) Btw, the loud screaming voices are from the bunch of us. HAHAHA!

B to the I to the BANG! BANG!

Rain-Love Story

2008-10-13T22:43:00.006+08:00

Another Korean music video. The MV is a little bit confusing. But the song is nice and meaningful. =)

Umm...the video is kind of small. If you want to watch it more clearly, you can enlarge or click this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBzNwzuxe0A

Saranghae.

Start of New Semester

2008-10-13T10:06:00.003+08:00

I came to school 2 hours early. Haha. As I thought, no tutorials on the first week. Currently killing my time doing random stuff.

In a way I'm glad the school is starting. At least I get to go out and have a change of activities in my life. "looking forward" for a particular lecture today. Hahaha.

No hand phone. Communication with me have go back to almost to a zilch. reminds me of my no-hand phone period. Hahaha. I have to wait until December to get a "new" hand phone. Haiz...

And for the third time, I approached and somewhat preached(?) about Christianity. Maybe I should stop sitting alone. They said because it is important that I was approached three times. I said maybe Allah is trying to remind me of what is important. The problem is where to start?

Past. Present. Future. Yeah right.

=+

2008-10-10T23:55:00.008+08:00

The camp left me speechless.

All I can say it is different from all the camp I went so far.

School starting soon and I don't know what to expect.

New semester, new class.

I'm feeling a sense of apprehension.

Again and again the questions pops up in my head.

I don't know what to do.

I'm stuck.

Not knowing whether to move forward or retrace my steps.

*sigh*

Yet and yet again what I imagine is different from the reality.

Maybe it's too far-fetched?

*shrugged*

Why?

Away for Camp

2008-10-05T23:46:00.004+08:00

So I off to camp for 3 days. Starting from Monday to Wednesday. Almost finished packing. Just a few thigs to pack before going in the morning. Truthfully, I don't know much about the camp since I miss the briefing. But I know it is compulsory so details don't matter, I still have to go. I think it's somewhere in Changi. A friend mention it. Which might be a little bit of trouble. Being a place wwith lots of stories. Bad ones. Oh well. Just wait and see.

I'm a little bit excited about the camp. Since I do like camps. Camps are fun! Hahaha. I really should be sleeping. Since I suppose to report at 7.30 in the morning. Oh well. I'm off. Don't miss me too much. (?!) Hahaha.

=/

Hari Raya!

2008-09-30T01:44:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is Hari Raya. Yeah...right. I'm not excited for it. Even before the passing of my grandfather, I don't feel like celebrating. So, no new clothes for me. I'm reusing my old ones. However, I do love to weave 'ketupat'. So fun! Hahaha.

Love the song New Classic. Makes me want to dance. Hahaha.

PYT.

Hibernating?

2008-09-20T23:26:00.005+08:00

Trying to stay way from internet. Which leave me uncontactable. I broke my phone ironically on the day my grandfather passed away. 2 whole weeks of no human contact. Hahaha. So, the only way to contact me is to e-mail me or catch me on msn. I don't miss my phone much though.

I have create some sort of routine for my day. Which is boring. I'm feeling guilty right now. And unmotivated. Haiz.

Well until something interesting crop up, bye!

Goodbye good times.

There he goes...

2008-09-09T01:11:00.007+08:00

I always wonder how would I feel when someone close pass away. Now I know. The feeling of sorrow when thinking how he wouldn't be here in the future.

My grandfather passed away last Saturday. At around 12.30 in the morning. It was sudden. There I was, watching videos on this very laptop, when I heard my grandmother shouted for my sister. Although she called my sister, something, maybe the desperation in my grandmother's voice, made me go to her. What I saw was my grandfather leaning against the door. It's scares me when I can't feel his pulse. I already suspected he was gone by then. I think my grandmother too. Yet, I cling on to this hope that he was still alive, breathing. Ambulance came and take him away. I thought there was hope but was dashed when the doctor confirmed it.

My whole family was here. Unfortunately, my uncle can't make in time for the burial as he have to fly all the way from Jeddah. It was surreal somehow. From time to time, I have to tell myself that Atuk is really gone. I always thought that when this happens, the family will be full with sorrow. Yet, admidst tears, there was laughter. It feels as if it was a family gathering. The difference is that Atuk was not here and it is Ramadhan, the fasting month.

Right now, I feel sad but mostly glad. Sad that Atuk is not here anymore but glad that I manage to spend some time with him. Glad that he does not suffer much when his life is taken away. Glad that he went during the blessed month of Ramadhan

Goodbye Atuk. I miss you.

Say what you want to say before it's too late.

Korean Entertainment

2008-08-31T18:00:00.009+08:00

Lately, about a few months now, I'm hooked on korean dramas, shows and music. This makes me rethink my resolve to take up mandarin. Maybe I should take korean first? Hahaha. Anyway, I found these at Youtube(where else?) and I thought I might share it.

Hey, Mr Big by Lee Hyori

Whenever I listen to this, I feel like dancing. Hahaha. This song basically meant for the men to have more courage.

Haru Haru by Big Bang

This need some explaination. The guy was heart-broken because the girl distanced herself from him and found out she was with another guy which is unfortunately his friend. He was angry. However, thinking that the girl does not loves him anymore and she loves his friend, he wanted to give her up. However, he hesitates because the girl does not seem happy with his friend. Finally, he found that the girl and his friend was lying to him and the girl was actually ill. The sad part is that the girl die at the end. On a lighter note, I must say this group of boys know how to act. They look convincing. Hahaha.

I want to thank all the people who have been subbing the shows, movies, dramas amd music for all the languages. If not for them, I have no clue what people are saying. Thank You!

Haru Haru.

One Full Circle

2008-08-29T18:06:00.007+08:00

Wake up.

Bath.

Eat.

Play computer.

Sleep.

Repeat.

I AM such a lazy bum. I swear I gain some weight due to my 'inactiveness' for the past few days. (I weigh myself) Hahaha. Some will say I have no life. Which is true. I am bored to tears. I'm struck in the house because I have to help out(see below post) since I AM the ONLY one that is free.(Blame the school holidays!!) I don't really mind helping out, in fact it is kind ofto help of a must to help out, but there is nothing to do in the house. It also does not help that I'm kind off alone in th house. Imagine my boredom. Haiz.

So, I have been spending my time....watching KOREAN MOVIES! Hahaha. I recommend Le Grand Chef. Very tear-jerking. At least for me. Sob.Sob. And I LOVE to watch them cook. very mouth-watering.

Looking forward to next week. There are more activities next week. Hahaha.

Nur Aliah. Hmm...

More BABIES!!!

2008-08-24T12:00:00.004+08:00

School are now over. Holiday is here! Hahaha.

Related to the title....
I officially declared that I have a NEW BABY SISTER at estimated time 0f 12pm on 24 of August 2008. Yup. It is a girl.

I have now have 11 siblings. Enough to be a soccer team. With a coach and team manager roles taken by my dad and stepmum. Hahaha.

Ahhh!!!!! ELEVEN!!!

Slacking....

2008-08-18T00:30:00.009+08:00

I’m so sorry that it is been a loooong time since I have update. I’m just plain lazy and no mood to update. For the past weeks, I have been slacking away waiting for the examination period as I don’t have to attend most lessons anymore. And I really mean it when I say I’m slacking when I should be studying for my exams. Friday was microeconomics exam and I only start studying the night before! HAHAHA. Talk about crazy. The blame should be push to my cousin. She and her horror movies. =+ I was waiting for desperation to set in but it is nowhere in sight. I finally manage to force myself to study a few chapters. I envy RP people. No exams. They only have understanding test. (WTH?!). HAHAX.

Yesterday was awesome. I enjoy myself. After quite sometime I don't meet my friends. All of us was there to celebrate Yani's birthday. Happy Birthday Yani! Actually, her birthday is on the 2oth August. So, consider early celebration since most of us is not free on the day itself. >.<>_<>

Moving to another matter, the 1 million question: What is round, round and all round? Actually my brother says it first. So, consider it copyright. HAHAHA. The reason for taking a long time to answer the question is I want to include picture. Seeing that my blog is evidently lacking in that department (and more), it is no surprise it took a long time. So, this is it. The answer is.....

BABIES!!!

SOO CUTE!! =)

But the one I'm really talking about is...

AKMAL!! LOL!! I know it is kind off lame but he is really round. Soooo chubby!! My baobei!! Hehehe. That's my dad at the background and the yougest sister, Aiman at the right in the first picture. Sorry for the blurry pictures. Akmal is so active. He cannot sit still for more than 10 seconds. =)

-_-

In this world...

2008-07-29T14:38:00.003+08:00

Why people so mean? And why do they judge others unfairly? They don't even know me. Or even try too. And maybe I didn't try too. I understand what you mean, Serene.

The question I want to ask is it just me or is it them? Maybe it is both of us?

Now, will you realize?!

Parents' Forum Day

2008-07-26T13:36:00.004+08:00

Today I help out at the Parents' Forum Day. Mainly, I did it for the money because I was really in a tight budget. But, I won't mind doing it again next year. I was suppose to be among the *SPECIALLY* selected people. Me? Specially selected? HAHAHA. When I find out that I will be a bus guide and commentating, I was a little bit shock. I have to talk to a bus full of people about the school. I don't even know much about NP. However, it is not as scary as I thought. It is kind of fun too. In fact, someone comment I can be a good bus guide in the future. I feel myself expanding. LOL!

Next week will be a little slack. My lessons have mostly ended. Waiting for the exam period and of course, REVISION! I cannot wait for school to be over!

And if you want to know what is round, round and all round, TAG ME! =)

I fake a smile so they won't see.=)

Erm...

2008-07-24T16:26:00.008+08:00

I'm really lazy to update. So, I do a short one.

Saturday was eventful. Some people just don't have a life. All in all, it was fun. Thanks guys. :)

Sunday, in other hand, is uneventful.

And for the last 4 days, except for Wednesday, I have been skipping lessons. Just the lesson in the morning. I was tired to wake up so early. But, it is mostly lectures. So, i didn't miss anything much. I will be glad when the semester is over. However, it means EXAM time.

Tomorrow, there is no TAS again. Life is a bore. Haiz...At least, my sister don't have anything on....I think.

I think I getting fitter because of TASIC 20 although it is only been 2 PTs. Haha. That is what I'm doing now. Waiting for the PTs to start. Cya!

P.S: What is round, round and all round?

TASIC 20

2008-07-18T00:32:00.003+08:00

They say we, as in the TASIC 20 participants, cannot divulge the details. It suppose to be confidential. A lot people know TASIC but not what it is about. We did PT today. Two words: crazy fun. I love to give details but I can't. There are spies everywhere. LOL. Looking forward for more. =)

Unfortunately, there is no TAS tomorrow. They are going overnight cycling. How fun is that?! But I would not be going. ='( My sister got something on and I don't think DADDY will let me go alone.=/. So, tomorrow, I will be going home straight. It will be boring. *Sigh*

Lonely. I'm miss Lonely.

YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!

2008-07-15T20:14:00.005+08:00

At this point of time, I'm delirious. I'm happy. I'm excited. I'm on cloud nine. I'm jumping with joy. I...ran out of words to describe. Hahaha. Why am I so happy about? There are three reasons.

1. I have a great time last weekend. We are having a family chalet and I was gorging myself with food. Just kidding! Anyway, my brother, sisters and cousins wanted to do something before heading home. We went to Downtown East to play bowling but it's full. We went searching for pool but there isn't any. Then, we went Bedok via Tampines and finally to Parkway Parade. There, we play pool. For me, it is my first and it was super fun! I want to do it again. Anyone want to take up the offer? Hahaha.

2. I completed my ITR project. After weeks of stressing, it is finally over. However, I did not contribute much so there are some lingering regrets. Unfortunately, I can't rewind the past so the only thing to do is to look forward.

3. Finally, the MAIN reason is that I made it into TASIC. I can't divulge the details. Just know TASIC is course. I thought I would not made it into TASIC but I did. So...YEAH! Hahaha. Looking forward to it. Next meeting is this Thursday....

All the best to me. Exam is nearing...

Lingering regrets.

Sichuan Earthquake

2008-07-12T14:29:00.011+08:00

I got this from my friend through e-mail. I can't help myself but cry when I read it. These are the touching stories about unbelievable things human are capable of doing:

The Amazing Sacrifice a Teacher did for his pupils.

The Sacrifice of a Father for his duty for the public.

The Gift of Life.

The Power of Mother Love.

The Value of Life.

The Courage of a Boy and how a Sense of Humour goes a long way.

And finally, the Strength of Human Willpower.

It is great to know there are such people in this world. Unfortunately, it took a disaster to make us realize this. Appreciate what we have. It is not going to last forever. Click the comic for better view.

Together, we will be a better place. Maybe.

A Busy Week

2008-07-11T18:06:00.005+08:00

I was sooo busy for the past few days:

Monday

Business statistics test...again...

'NAFTA' test for TASIC...except that they replace incline pull-up to MEN pull-up and standing board jump to push-up. I did none for the first and only 1 for the second. My excuse for the second one is that they want STANDARD push-up. The one where you have to almost kiss the floor and I barely do 5 for the non-standard one. Haha

Tuesday

Skipped school. I was sooo tired from the NAFTA test. My sister and I got back at around 10 plus. My body was sore all over.

Wednesday

Went for the only lesson of the day. Microeconomics tutorial. Almost half the class did not attend. Then, I went for 2 project meetings. ITR and CATS. Went back to aunt's house to teach cousin for PSLE. Slept at around 3.30 in the morning. Finishing the ITR project.

Thursday

FMM quiz that I didn't study for. Barely know how to answer half the questions. ITR deadline. We barely make the deadline. We send soft copy on the dot at 5pm and the hard copy 2 hours late at almost 7pm. Even then, it is not fully completed. *Sigh*At least it is over. Oh, and a bizarre thing happen to me. I was approached by this 2 women and asked whether did anybody talk about Christianity to me before. ?! I was raising my eyebrows. These 2 women are basically trying to convert me to become christian. No offence intended to the Christians. I'm a Muslim and will always be.

Friday

Finally, Friday. TGIF!! My favourite day of the week. There is SWIMMING! and TAS! Not coincidentally, I'm did not see any of my classmates on this day. I looove Friday! Hahaha.

So...this is pretty much what happen.

I hope I get into TASIC. Have to wait until next Tuesday to know the result. Next TAS meeting will be Round Island Cycling Expedition(RICE). We will be cycling overnight. IF my father give permission me. *sigh*. He already refuse to let me go for the Mt Stong trip.

On final note, tomorrow, or should I say today, I'm going family chalet. Can't wait for the barbecue. I'm going to gorge myself. Hahaha. It will be fun! I hope.

TAS rocks my life!

I PASSED!! I PASSED!!

2008-07-02T23:43:00.007+08:00

I finally got my business statistic result after more than a 3 weeks wait. I got 32 out of 50. I was sooo relieved. I was so scared of failing after the tutor told my class that there was 1 failure. In the end, we found out that no one failed. Wth, right? That said, I'm still disappointed because I got C. Haiz...And I didn't get to see the paper. So, I don't know what I did wrong or what I did right. Looks like I have to study everything for next Monday test.

I also decided I will take up the TASIC course. It is so interesting. I 'm more excited about backpacking, water confidence jungle survival skill and sports climbing but I felt kayaking is somehow redundant for me since I have certificates on star 1 and 2. However, it been more than 2 years since I kayak. Haha. Overall, I found it to be quite worth it. So, I decided to join. I will figure out a way to pay the $300 fee.

Lastly, I got my pictures of the photo shoot during the grooming workshop. I must say I looked ROUND. Haha. Not really flattering.

I feel lonely.

Keeping mum...

2008-06-30T12:02:00.004+08:00

I know they are talking about me. It feel so uncomfortable being around them. They might think I don't understand Chinese but I do. I'm certain they talking about me and I don't think it is something good. I know that I am to blame. So, if they want to talk, let them talk. But at least, don't talk in front of my face. My work might be bad but your lack of consideration is even worse. Others can do it, why not you? Now, I'm hating myself for not speaking up. Coward. I hope they read this.

Speak in ENGLISH!! There is 5 members. Not 4.

Show me the money...

2008-06-29T08:30:00.005+08:00

I'm broke! It is the truth. Currently, I only have $1 in my wallet. I'm fine with that except that I need to pay $8 by Wednesday for the grooming workshop. So, where am I suppose to get the money? Plus, there is still future workshops to worry about. Also, TAS is organizing another trip. It should be around $70. On top of that, there is also this training course that costs $300!! Even if I pay by installments which is $50 per month, I can't make it. My monthly allowance is like $80 per month. S0, I only have $30 to last a month. It is like having $1.50 each day. Nowadays, all I can think about is money. I know people would say that don't go for the trip or course. But if I don't go for the trip, what is the point of joining TAS? And if I don't go for the course, I will forever be just another member instead of one of the leaders.

I'm swarmed with numbers. I think about this almost everyday if not everyday. Maybe, I should get a job. But, if I took the course, where am I suppose to find the time to work? Actually, this problem is not new. When I decided to take swimming for S&W, I have to forked out about $80 to buy the swimming costume and goggles. I still owed my sister the money. Honestly, my father should have pay for it but I didn't ask him. I don't even think he knows I took swimming. He complained when I asked him money to top-up my ez-link and ask me to work like my sister. My sister mostly paid her daily expenses with the money she earned. Although I applauded her, I want to enjoy my poly life. However, I feel guilty every time I have to borrow from my sister. It is her money and there is no guarantee when I can pay her back. I never really ask for anything. Is it impossible for me to get this?

I concluded I need to take drastic plan of action:

1. I will not eat outside. Pack lunch or starve. No more KFC. (Bread, bread and more bread.)
2. Help out in any school events that offers money
3. Work harder.

Jia You! Go me!

Maybe now I can lost some weight. Haha.

Hello...

2008-06-27T00:34:00.003+08:00

I added a new song. It is a chinese song. Tong Hua by Gua Liang. Some may recognized as Aliff Aziz's song; Arjuna Cinta. Arjuna Cinta was adapted from the chinese version. I absolutely loved this song from way back. Can't remember when. I always been humming the tune. Unfortunately, at that point of time, I have no idea who sang it and what is the title. So, thanks to Aliff Aziz, I now know the song. Yeah! I purposely took the piona version. So sing along in chinese or malay version. Enjoy. Haha.

I'm a walking zombie.

Today is tuesday...

2008-06-24T22:14:00.004+08:00

I was late again today. Woke up at 8 in the morning. School start at 9. Took half an hour to get ready and rushed off to school. Reached school at 9.30. Then, I found out that class was cancelled. I was so lucky. Hahaha. Then, my whole class went canteen 1 to sit down and wait for the next lesson. And Surprise, Surprise! We bought a birthday cake for the June babies which is Chia Yin and Ellis. Ellis's birthday was in fact today itself. Created quite a commotion in the canteen. Hahaha. Each of us wrote something for Ellis. Then, the rest is history(not important).

And referring to the late-coming, I just want to say I am a HABITUAL LATECOMER. Hahaha. I just have difficulty waking up in the morning. But that is my fault. Who ask me to sleep late the night before? Hahaha.

Who? Me? Hahaha.

Starting Of School Day....

2008-06-23T20:09:00.006+08:00

....Not! I skipped school today. No motivation to go school. Plus my sister is sick. So, I ''keep her company''. Haha. Anyway, my classmate informed me that generally our class did well for BSTATS test. But 1 failed. I feel like my heart drop into my stomach. 1 failure?! Damn. What are the chances? 1 out of 20. But my classmates are mostly got 1 digit points for their 'O' levels AND they are the hardworking type. Which, I may add, I'm not. ITR is gone. Don't tell me BSTATS is gone too? Plus there is another test coming. 7 July. Not an open-book test. I'm dead meat. Oh well, good luck to me.

All is not yet lost.

Last day of holidays...

2008-06-22T17:26:00.004+08:00

The title says it all. I don't actually mind going to school. Just the fact that there is assignments and projects to do. I have issues with time management. I will figure something out. Somehow. Haha.

On a sad note, my grandfather's eldest sister(Nek Long) passed away yesterday around 3p.m. It was not really surprising as she was quite old. Around 80 plus. Truthfully, I was not really affected. Afterall, I only met her a couple of times as she lived in Melaka. But, this makes me think of my great grandmother(Nek Yang). My grandfather's mother. She is more than 100 years old and is still living. How should I put this? I empathised with her. It is hard for her to see her children passed away before her. Or even her grandchildren and great grandchildren. As she gets older, she lost more and more of her loved ones. Futhernore, it is difficult to find someone to take care of her. This is how life is so unpredicteable.

Maybe tomorrow will be different. Maybe.

I'm back!!

2008-06-20T22:44:00.003+08:00

Just got back from Rashilah"s family chalet. So, wth am I doing there? Being a busybody. Haha. Actually, Rashilah insisted that I have to go. She even go to the extend of asking her mother to call my father. That shows how badly she wants me there. *gloating* Haha.

Anyway, the outing was super fun. It was a great bonding time with rashilah and I get to know Rashilah's family more. Her family is very friendly and it does not take me long for me to be comfortable with them. The food was delicious and plenty. I think I just gain the weight that I painstakingly trying to lost for the past 2 months. Haha.

I also went swimming in the swimming pool. Super shiok. After 2 weeks, I need to practice my swimming before it gets rusty. Speaking of which, I determined to know how to swim freestyle so that I can gladly and finally say I can swim! There is this wish of mine to jump into the water without inhibitions. Until the day come...

Oh, I also sleepover Rashilah's house. Pretty weird. First time sleeping over a friend's house. One on one talk with Rashilah. Since she don't have any weird sleeping habits, Let's do it again another time. Haha.

Unfortunately, I don't have any pictures to show. Or any kind of pictures. Which shows that I'm not really into picture taking. And the fact that I don't have any camera. But I will try to put my picture. Somehow. Haha. See you soon.

Damn it. Just want to say that. Haha.

Bye Bye

2008-06-18T00:38:00.005+08:00

Reminds me of my mum. Although I barely remember her, I can't help thinking what could have been...

The only thing to do is move forward...

Can I be free but yet busy?

2008-06-14T15:05:00.003+08:00

I have a lot of assignment to do: Designing poster, a lot of researching to do and newspaper reading. But I did none of those things for the past few days. Zilch. Which explain why I am so free that I am bored to tears. Haha. I been spending my days playing computer games and watching movies online. Yup. Me = no life. Haha.

Fortunately, the outing on Tuesday alleviate some of my boredom. I and my buddies decided to hang out on Tuesday. Bowling was fun! I got a strike. Haha. We created quite a commotion with the loud cheering and laughing. Everyone was looking at us! And the Ah Ma beside us was laughing at our antics. I suppose she was entertained. Haha. I want to do it again! Gals, let's make another date!

The grooming workshop was o.k. I picked up a few things which I probably will forget in a few weeks time because I don't think I will practice it. There are millions of skincare product that I have to buy to continue practising. Yeah, right. I really think that there should be more than one trainer. There were about twenty of us. I pretty much did the make-up on my own for the photo shoot. I look alright but it sure would be nice to have a make-up artist to doll you up. Haha. The photograph could looked better but the photographer and the teacher said it is alright. Well, they are the expert and there is always photo shop. Haha.

Wth am I doing?

Quick Update...

2008-06-08T12:28:00.003+08:00

Ok people...I know you are worried about me...But I'm fine...Things have settled down and is going back to normal...Actually my sisters and I have a massive argument with my father...That pretty much sums it up what happened last Saturday. I have been lazy to post any entries for the last couple of days because I was pretty caught up with my common test and this korean drama on mysoju(Jumuchi and Dalbi are so cute together!). To digress a little, I was pretty disappointed with the sucky ending(I finished it!). Anyway, this is quick summary of what happened last week.

Saturday was the day after the arguement with my father and also the day of my Introduction to Resort & Managenent(ITR) common test. So, as you can guess, I didn't go for it. Just to confirm, I am crazy. Th common test make up 20% of my final grades. All I got to say is 2 things: I didn't study and I was going to be late. The first due to what happened on the previous night and the second because I didn't check the time properly. I thought the test was at 11.30a.m. but instead it is 11a.m. There I was, at 10.30a.m., unprepared and going to be late for the test. Anyway, the lecturer/tutor in charge messae me to call her. The conclusion was I was to speak to her tomorrow for the grooming workshop.

Tuesday was my Micoeconomics test and Friday was my Business Statistic test. Guess what? I was late for both test. Typical habitual late-comer(ME!). It was kind og embrassing walking down the aisle to get to your seat. The tests was okay. I manage to answer the questions with the exception of one or two. The weird thing is that I was the first to hand in my paper to the invigilators in my class for both test. It is not because I was the cleverest or anything. Believe me. Some of my classmates are got single digits for their L1R5! I think because I hate to stay there longer than necessary and that my classmates are the kind of people that do their work properly.

Finally, yesterday, my grandparents came back from their hometown which is Bukit Lintang, Melaka. They brought back home a couple of durians from their orchard and I pretty much finish a whole container of durians. Haha. I was taking revenge after so long of being deprived from durians. Also, today muy stepmother and little siblings came back from Kedah. I miss Akmal sooo much. He is so cute! Haha. Erm...To clear up the confusion, it is Syafz's Akmal, it is my little brother. Yup. Even the spelling is the same. Haha.

That sums up my week. Tomorrow is the gromming workshop. I have to wear business attire and bring along my personal grooming kit; make-up etc. It is 2pm to 5pm. So, sorry gals. I can't make it tomorrow. The workshop was set like one month ago. Maybe can change to another date?

What to do? So xian!

The future is in my hands...

2008-05-31T10:42:00.003+08:00

...And I might have ruin it. The consequences might haunt me for 3 years. All I will say is I have not study and I will be late. I'm at the bottom. In no condition to do it. what happened last night affects what happen to do...

Lowest point of my life

2008-05-30T23:50:00.009+08:00

This week have been lousy and now, I having the worst moment in my life. RIGHT NOW! I am starving, depressed, stressed, worn out and broke. My life is in chaos. At work, school and home. Honestly, what is stopping me from taking my life is I'm afraid of what after death and death would not solve anything. It is that serious! I would even bother to elaborate. ITR common test is tomorrow and I have not study. I'm crying my heart out and it feels good to let everything out but I shall look forward and move on. That is the only thing I can do right now. Don't worry. I will be fine tomorrow. Hope me luck for tomorrow test. Jia You!

First Day!

2008-05-27T01:06:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the first day of work at Secret Recipe. It was pretty slow and boring at first. Not to mention awkward. my collegues and I was not really talking at first. I have to admit; I was not really friendly to begin with. Haha. I have to learn the basic waitress' skills; hosting, taking orders, setting and serving. Serving and hosting are kind of a no-brainer. The latter you have to pass the food to the customers and the former you have to point the seats for the customers. Settings and taking orders are a little tricky. Anyway by the 6 plus, the crowd started to come in. I have to take orders since it was busy. The feeling of taking order is the same as handling the cash register. The feeling of nervousness and lack of confidence. What if I screw up? Fortunately, i didn't. Haha. Well, I did make some mistake here and there but its is my first day. I'm allow to make mistakes. So that I can learn from it.

My stepmum and all my little brothers and sisters went back to Kedah last Sunday. I must applaud her courage for readily accept the challenge of taking care of all her 5 kids alone. From Johor to Kedah. It is definitely not easy. What my father is thinking? He is crazy that way. I am going to miss my little brother, Akmal, like crazy. He is sooo cute. Everytime I came back home, he will greet me at the door and I will kiss his chubby cheeks. *SIGH* Looking at the brighter side, The house will be peaceful for at least 1 week. My grandparents also went back to their hometown, Melaka. We(my big sisters and brother), especially me(I'm broke), are left behind to strave to death. Hahaha. Just kidding. Worse come to worse, I just have to eat maggi mee 3 times a day.

I hate being in the middle. Period.

Up and Running

2008-05-24T16:52:00.003+08:00

Due to some technical difficulties, I have to close the blog for a while. You would have notice I change my skin. So, something went wrong. Haha. I still cannot use other skin other than the template. I'm not good at this. Haha. Unless I somehow get Microsoft Frontpage, somebody have to help me in this. Well, look out for future post... :)

Lonely and alone.

Gifts

2008-05-22T20:21:00.007+08:00

I know my birthday is like 4 months ago but you know what will be a great birthday present? Singapore bus guide. I'm practical that way. For two days, I have been spending 2 hours in buses on my journey back home. I'm sure there is an alternative route that takes shorter traveling time. However, I wouldn't know since it is difficult to find. These two days was not the only days I have spend so much time in buses. Yup...A Singapore bus guide will make a great birthday gift.

Also, I went to my future workplace to pass 4 things that I was required to. I know my manager would be a foreigner(the accent was clear when she called me yesterday) but meeting her in person was intimidating. Not that she was scary looking or anything, just that she was not, how should I put this, friendly to me as compared to the person who interview me yesterday. This is definitely worsen the situation since I have a bad experience being under the charge of a foreigner. I am not discriminating. It just that I have problem understanding the instruction given. Obviously, this will cause some frustrating for both parties. Oh well, at least my future colleague look friendly enough.

So, I'm starting on next Monday. I still cannot believe I got a job. And I started to think whether it is wise for me to start working now. Common test in 2 weeks time. I am lost at business statistic and I need a lot of revision for microeconomics. I already screw up ITR quiz. I was late om Wednesday. So, I was only given 10 minutes out of 30 or 45 minutes to finish the quiz. although I try to do as fast as I can, I didn't finish. Duh! :( I shall work hard. The future lies in my hand. Jia you!

The irony. Nope. Things are still the same.

I Found It!

2008-05-21T23:22:00.005+08:00

It so fast...I don't expect it to be so fast...I mean usually it take 1 or 2 days but for my case it takes less than 1 hour...Haha...You probably are confused and thinking what in the world am I talking at? Haha...I'm pretty much over the moon...I was grinning to myself like an idiot in the bus...

OK, I think you can take a guess from the title of the entry but this is what it is about: I got a job! WOHOO!! It was pretty sudden. My sister say the ad this morning(or should I say yesterday morning?) and I decided to try my luck. So, after so go all the way form Clementi to Marina Square. I was feeling more confident than when I ask for my first job(Yamayuki!). I feel the application form and was interview by one supervisor or manager(I think he is a manager). He was great! I mean I was so at ease with him that I don't feel nervous. We were cracking jokes
during the interview. Unfortunately, he did not introduce himself and I didn't ask for his name(Baka!).

So, I was pretty confident I get the job. After all, I do have some experience on being a waitress(very little, actually, haha) and customer service(I really do have experience on this). Anyway, I'm not being boastful but I was feeling that way. Furthermore, the 'manager' gave me the details such as the pay, uniform, my shirt size, when I can work and also things to bring when I got call down. That was pretty obvious wasn't it? I mean, if you don't want to hire that person, why bother telling him or her the details, right?

After that, the manager said that they will call the latest next Monday to inform if I get the job. I start to begin my journey home, which I want to add, a very long journey home. 2 hours, to be exact. I took bus back to woodlands. Which will explain that I am in such a dire state that I can't even afford to take the MRT. Hahaha. Getting back to the topic, I was on the bus for around 30 minutes when someone call me to say that I got the job! Hahaha. She told me to bring the things required to the outlet as soon as possible. I was numb with shock. They either desperately in need of workers or I am so good. I choose both just because I want to boost my self-esteem. Hahaha.

So, yeah. That pretty much how it went. The details is not confirm but I think I got the job(Did I?). :)))). I want to say I owe my sister one and Insyallah, I will treat her at my workplace. (Let's hope she did not read my blog. Hahaha.) I also want to apologize to my friends. Sorry, Rashilah and Syafz. I know I should ask you two along but it was pretty last minute. Since the details are not confirm, I would tell you which outlet I'm working. I will write back when everything is settle. Yeah! :)))

Er...this is a long post. Hehehe.

Tired of trying...Can't blame them...Old habits died hard...

Ayat-Ayat Cinta

2008-05-20T22:18:00.005+08:00

Woah...I'm blown away...I'm touched...Not because of Fahri(he IS the ideal man if there is a such thing in this world anymore)....But I'm impressed by the women that is behind Fahri; Aisha and Maria. I think the focus should be on both of the women and not so much on Fahri. Why? Let's start with the obvious: Aisha. She willing agree to polygamy. This means having more than one husband or wife. In this case, it is obviously having more wife. In fact, Aisha is the one who insisted that Fahri to marry Maria. I want to applaud her and all the others out there for sacrifice themselves for to help others, for not only thinking of themselves. Granted that Aisha was trying to use Maria to save Fahri but she did it for all of them; Fahri , Maria and the baby.

Next, Maria. I admit she was the third party and was selfish at the beginning of the marriage. But, as time goes by, she realized the sacrifice that Aisha make for her. She even realized that loving Fahri does not mean possessing him(in this case, marriage). She become more understanding and closer towards Aisha. Alhamdulilah, Maria passes away peacefully and in Islam. In the end, the two women compromise and make Fahri's life easier and less complicated. Only an amazing and big-heated person can do such thing. This is why I think Aisha and Maria should get the credit they deserve. There are enough talk about Fahri but there is one thing I want to say about him: He is a fair man but was not as perfect people say he was.

Those who haven't watch it, GO AND WATCH IT!

I am inspired. This shall be my guide. Insyallah.

Curses...

2008-05-20T17:57:00.002+08:00

Wohoo! I'm so dead. I'm so lost that even while staring at the screen, I have no clue what is going on. Serve me right for plugging my ears with earphone and not paying attention. This is going to hurt me real bad. Better buck up. 2 more weeks to go. Haha.

Feels like it all over again. The dark cloud is looming over my head. Damn. Do I even need it?

Orchard Road...

2008-05-18T19:47:00.007+08:00

I went Orchard Road yesterday...Suppose to check out a few roadshow...Turns out there is nothing interesting. Well, it just an excuse to go out anyway. I don't want to stay home and face my laptop all day.(I need a life!) I was searching for a job too. I desperately broke and I owed my sister lots of money. I have to pay her back. I hate to depend on others and even more when they rub it in your face. What I need is a break. As in a job. A waitress job that between my school and home and at least $4 per hour. Is that too much to ask? (sigh)

Today was the sudden outburst day. Why? My dad came bursting in my(and my sisters) room and began his verbal assault. It was so sudden. One minute I was busy doing my work and the next minute there he was. As usually, I tuned him out although his focus was on my sister(thank god for that!). But his words do get to me and cause me to do some thinking. Which, to be truthful, scares me. The question in my head...when I will go it, how will I do it and am I be able to do it? Allah...lead me to the correct path...and help me to stay there...

How is my life going to turn out? I don't want to be someone who succeeds in life but a failure in death. I don't want the world to end during my period of life.

Skipping TAS...

2008-05-16T22:31:00.004+08:00

I skipped my CCA today...Which is somewhat weird because I not used to skipping CCA(There is a reason why I got A2 for my secondary CCA...hehe). Blame my sister...She don't want to ran PT. Actually, I am also lazy to ran PT. Haha. Sorry, Strikemasters! I am too tired. It been a few days since I got a good night sleep and tonight I will have it! I have busy with assignment and other stuff...

Speaking of other stuff...I finished watching Hana Yori Dango(HYD)! Finally! It took me ages to load the last episode. Fyi, HDY is the Japanese and original version of Meteor Garden(MG). If you still don't know what I'm talking about, just skip this part(or you can find out what I am talking about). Anyway, HYD is a thousand times way better than MG. MG was draggy and nonsense.

Ok...back to assignments...Currently doing Creative Applied Thinking Skills(CATS) project...Good news is the project is almost done...The bad news is there is more to come..a(SIGH!)...Intregrated assignments of Microeconomics with Business Communication and Intregrated project of Fundementals of MICE Management(Don't ask) and Introduction to Tourism and Resort Management...I actually believe that my course is slack(My course is Tourism and Resort Management, btw)...

Well then...working hard! The future lies in my hands...:)

Domyouji!

Old memories(ok, not so old)...

2008-05-15T18:47:00.010+08:00

Guess what happened today? I wore my old school uniform to NP. Haha. In fact, it feels really weird. But my almost my whole class wore school uniform too. Haha. Obviously we have nothing better to do? Haha. Standing in front of the mirror, seeing myself in the mirror, reminds me of secondary school. I looked the same(i can fit into my skirt!). I really miss my friends(you know who you are!), not to mention the teachers. And how can i forget, the canteen food! Haha. I can't tell you how much I miss it. Delicious and cheap. However, it is all in the past. Time to look ahead. Today I had a great time bonding with my fellow classmates. Taboo was awesome! I was bursting out laughing. My stomach was hurting. I also really appreciate those who are considerate and thoughtful of me. Thanks for bridging the gap! Hopeful, we have more great time in the future!

Depression

2008-05-12T16:01:00.004+08:00

XIAN!! I'm lost...Without direction...Without purpose...God! What am I doing here? I need to snap out of it...Someone please kindly point the way...Nothing going into my head...What happened to my determination?! My goals in life?! My resolution?! It only takes 5 weeks...And another 3 YEARS to go...Am I that fickle-minded? Depression is geting to me...It is either that or I'm getting hungry...Haha...

I know it is cheem. Emo.

1 in the morning..

2008-05-12T01:33:00.009+08:00

Yes! It is one on Monday morning...In about 5 hours time, I have to wake up and go to school...I'm addicted on a Japanese drama...I got a project that I have no idea what to do...My life is in a mess...Or am I getting depressed because of the drama?

baka!!

Latest happenings..

2008-05-08T17:25:00.007+08:00

I went to Jerangkang Waterfalls last weekend. Set off on Friday evening and
arrived on Saturday morning. Trekking for more than 2 hours to get to the base camp...my feet have blister all over(note to self: buy more comfortable shoe)...Next, come the waterfall trek, from base camp to the waterfall...somehow easier than the first...the leaves must had cushioned my feet...

All in all...it was a good trip...made me thought about my sec 3 camping...or should i say the non-existent camping trip...We could pick between Taman Negara, Gunung Ayam, OBS or kayaking trip...Unfortunately i choose none...Surprising not to mention annoying, my Father refused to let me go...which left me with a tinge of regret...

On Monday, I forced myself to go to school. Later i realized i have Ambassador interview...Ambassador is a CCA where you promote NP to the public...Typical weird question were asked..."If a group of boys student approach you and ask
your number what would you do?"...What in the world am i suppose to answer
that?!

On Tuesday, I have a speech to present. We have to wear smart casual. Pretty weird feeling wearing working clothes to school...Still, I screwed up...Talking about not prepared and nervousness...

At least Wednesday went without a hitch...

Which brought us to today...the day which i skipped school...*sigh*...hopefully i don't have to make up for the lecture...