Keeping mum...

I know they are talking about me. It feel so uncomfortable being around them. They might think I don't understand Chinese but I do. I'm certain they talking about me and I don't think it is something good. I know that I am to blame. So, if they want to talk, let them talk. But at least, don't talk in front of my face. My work might be bad but your lack of consideration is even worse. Others can do it, why not you? Now, I'm hating myself for not speaking up. Coward. I hope they read this.



Speak in ENGLISH!! There is 5 members. Not 4.

Show me the money...

I'm broke! It is the truth. Currently, I only have $1 in my wallet. I'm fine with that except that I need to pay $8 by Wednesday for the grooming workshop. So, where am I suppose to get the money? Plus, there is still future workshops to worry about. Also, TAS is organizing another trip. It should be around $70. On top of that, there is also this training course that costs $300!! Even if I pay by installments which is $50 per month, I can't make it. My monthly allowance is like $80 per month. S0, I only have $30 to last a month. It is like having $1.50 each day. Nowadays, all I can think about is money. I know people would say that don't go for the trip or course. But if I don't go for the trip, what is the point of joining TAS? And if I don't go for the course, I will forever be just another member instead of one of the leaders.

I'm swarmed with numbers. I think about this almost everyday if not everyday. Maybe, I should get a job. But, if I took the course, where am I suppose to find the time to work? Actually, this problem is not new. When I decided to take swimming for S&W, I have to forked out about $80 to buy the swimming costume and goggles. I still owed my sister the money. Honestly, my father should have pay for it but I didn't ask him. I don't even think he knows I took swimming. He complained when I asked him money to top-up my ez-link and ask me to work like my sister. My sister mostly paid her daily expenses with the money she earned. Although I applauded her, I want to enjoy my poly life. However, I feel guilty every time I have to borrow from my sister. It is her money and there is no guarantee when I can pay her back. I never really ask for anything. Is it impossible for me to get this?


I concluded I need to take drastic plan of action:

1. I will not eat outside. Pack lunch or starve. No more KFC. (Bread, bread and more bread.)
2. Help out in any school events that offers money
3. Work harder.

Jia You! Go me!




Maybe now I can lost some weight. Haha.

Hello...

I added a new song. It is a chinese song. Tong Hua by Gua Liang. Some may recognized as Aliff Aziz's song; Arjuna Cinta. Arjuna Cinta was adapted from the chinese version. I absolutely loved this song from way back. Can't remember when. I always been humming the tune. Unfortunately, at that point of time, I have no idea who sang it and what is the title. So, thanks to Aliff Aziz, I now know the song. Yeah! I purposely took the piona version. So sing along in chinese or malay version. Enjoy. Haha.



I'm a walking zombie.

Today is tuesday...

I was late again today. Woke up at 8 in the morning. School start at 9. Took half an hour to get ready and rushed off to school. Reached school at 9.30. Then, I found out that class was cancelled. I was so lucky. Hahaha. Then, my whole class went canteen 1 to sit down and wait for the next lesson. And Surprise, Surprise! We bought a birthday cake for the June babies which is Chia Yin and Ellis. Ellis's birthday was in fact today itself. Created quite a commotion in the canteen. Hahaha. Each of us wrote something for Ellis. Then, the rest is history(not important).

And referring to the late-coming, I just want to say I am a HABITUAL LATECOMER. Hahaha. I just have difficulty waking up in the morning. But that is my fault. Who ask me to sleep late the night before? Hahaha.

Who? Me? Hahaha.

Starting Of School Day....

....Not! I skipped school today. No motivation to go school. Plus my sister is sick. So, I ''keep her company''. Haha. Anyway, my classmate informed me that generally our class did well for BSTATS test. But 1 failed. I feel like my heart drop into my stomach. 1 failure?! Damn. What are the chances? 1 out of 20. But my classmates are mostly got 1 digit points for their 'O' levels AND they are the hardworking type. Which, I may add, I'm not. ITR is gone. Don't tell me BSTATS is gone too? Plus there is another test coming. 7 July. Not an open-book test. I'm dead meat. Oh well, good luck to me.


All is not yet lost.

Last day of holidays...

The title says it all. I don't actually mind going to school. Just the fact that there is assignments and projects to do. I have issues with time management. I will figure something out. Somehow. Haha.

On a sad note, my grandfather's eldest sister(Nek Long) passed away yesterday around 3p.m. It was not really surprising as she was quite old. Around 80 plus. Truthfully, I was not really affected. Afterall, I only met her a couple of times as she lived in Melaka. But, this makes me think of my great grandmother(Nek Yang). My grandfather's mother. She is more than 100 years old and is still living. How should I put this? I empathised with her. It is hard for her to see her children passed away before her. Or even her grandchildren and great grandchildren. As she gets older, she lost more and more of her loved ones. Futhernore, it is difficult to find someone to take care of her. This is how life is so unpredicteable.


Maybe tomorrow will be different. Maybe.

I'm back!!

Just got back from Rashilah"s family chalet. So, wth am I doing there? Being a busybody. Haha. Actually, Rashilah insisted that I have to go. She even go to the extend of asking her mother to call my father. That shows how badly she wants me there. *gloating* Haha.

Anyway, the outing was super fun. It was a great bonding time with rashilah and I get to know Rashilah's family more. Her family is very friendly and it does not take me long for me to be comfortable with them. The food was delicious and plenty. I think I just gain the weight that I painstakingly trying to lost for the past 2 months. Haha.

I also went swimming in the swimming pool. Super shiok. After 2 weeks, I need to practice my swimming before it gets rusty. Speaking of which, I determined to know how to swim freestyle so that I can gladly and finally say I can swim! There is this wish of mine to jump into the water without inhibitions. Until the day come...

Oh, I also sleepover Rashilah's house. Pretty weird. First time sleeping over a friend's house. One on one talk with Rashilah. Since she don't have any weird sleeping habits, Let's do it again another time. Haha.

Unfortunately, I don't have any pictures to show. Or any kind of pictures. Which shows that I'm not really into picture taking. And the fact that I don't have any camera. But I will try to put my picture. Somehow. Haha. See you soon.


Damn it. Just want to say that. Haha.